Farewell

Thank you everyone for everything you did for me all these years. I know I was quite a burden for everyone. Sorry if I brought my problems here to add to your own, which I know is far greater than anyyhing I've faced. I know this because I have extremely weak willpower and would probably fold in just a few days in your shoes. I'm so sorry I'm so sorr.

As you've likely guessed from this day on my participation in the Kosmosis Chronicles project is going to be postponed indefinitely. I want to do this, I really really want to, so much I've made tons of.models and sketches and plot webs I formulate and tend to ebery day it's become a ritual of some kind.

But right now I dunno, my life is in ruins and I almost commited arson because I'm such a careless idiot. I swear to everything I need medication at this point. My brain is a mess I'm the bpack sheep of the WORLD. I make everyone cry they'd probably be better off if I wasn't born. Good riddance.

I'm not quite sure right now but I might go kill myself by jumping off into the river or something I dunno.

Nobody has hopes for me. WHY WAS I BORN TO SUFFER? I am a conduit of suffering and that is the cold. Hard. TRUTH.

Better kill muself and go to hell already. But i cant do that since im such a coward ill probably just die homeless or something cold and alone. Fuck me.

I want to give up now.